it's 3.08am now
& i can't get to sleep.
blame it on the mocha frappé i had just now.
yah,
even a tinny whinny bit of caffeine
can keep me up all night/morning.
that's why i don't drink coffee or tea.
remember i went to Little India for threading?
well, met my cousin at 2pm at bpp.
had chicken rice for lunch before boarding a bus to
torture ourselves.
sat 960 & arrived at Little India not long after.
threading was
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SUPER PAINFUL !!
(for 1st timers)
tears were welling up in my eyes
as soon as the lady started.
i think this is much more painful that tattoo-ing.
seriously.
after threading,
my brows & upper lip were red & sore.
bought cold water to reduce the redness
but i don't think the cool water help much.
anyway,
cousin went to meet her friend
& i went home to wait for baby.
(wait, i've to clarify something.
though the threading was PAINFUL...
the outcome is fantastic!
both me & cousin were very satisfied.)
reached home around 5+pm.
waited for baby & we went down to woodlands
to settle some stuff about guilford.
went over to NUH to visit baby's cousin as she's
hospitalised for food poisoning?
hope she gets well soon.
(:
after all that running about,
i'm back at home trying to get to sleep
but failing miserably.
remember the bad news that befallen on me?
Lassie being ill?
yah,
the vet says he has ear cancer
& it's the final stage.
3years ago, when we notice Lassie's ear was infected
we bought him to the vet.
Guess what that vet said at that time?
" Oh, it's just infection. Nothing to worry.
Just wash his ear with this ear medication & he'll be fine."
& now?
" He has ear cancer. Final stage."
bloody hell !
he could have gone for the operation that
might prolong his life span 3yrs ago!
if not for the wrong diagnose.
fucking idiot vet!
hey!
i know that's not your pet.
you're not tied emotionally to him
so it doesn't matter that you'd made a wrong diagnose or not.
cause it doesn't concern you one bit!
but,
put yourself in other's shoes.
how would you feel if a close one is departing soon?
even if it's just a dog,
(some of you might argue)
he's a part of MY FAMILY.
(& family means nobody gets left behind)
i can't imagine my house without Lassie.
i will cry everytime i see his pictures or remember
his silly antics.
i will go crazy from missing him.
i can't look at other dogs without thinking that
Lassie is gone forever...
he's not coming back anymore,
no matter how loud i call out his name.
he'll never come wagging his tail at me anymore.
he'll never run away from me when it's shower time.
there will always be that empty space that
can never be filled up, never be forgotten
no matter how much time passes me by.
(NO other dogs can & will replace him)
i really wish that this is a horrible dream.
that i'll wake up every morning to know that
this isn't gonna happen.
that he'll live till i past on first.
that he'll be around everyday waiting for me to come home.
yea.
i love Lassie alot.
he's my very first pet & dog.
i have him since i was in Pri 1.
i don't wanna think about it anymore.
just that i hope when we bring him to another vet
for a second opinion,
the result is that
he's healthy & gonna live for a very long time.
i know that's highly impossible.
but there's always miracles.
& a miracle will happen.
i'm abit depress nowadays.
not matter how i hide it,
it still gets the better of me when i'm alone.
it's 345am now.
i'm very wide awake & i'm working 12-930 later.
this is a very wordy post with no pictures.
filled with sad emotions.
i don't wanna plague my blog with unhappy thoughts
but i've been keeping this in my heart for too long.
i might go bonkers if i don't share this.
so sorry for dampening your mood
if you came here to find some happy stuff.
i'm alone,depressed & not knowing what to do.
hadn't been feeling this for a very long time.
in the end,
after such a long time,
i still end up feeling
lost...
