i just got home.
went to eat with friends at East Coast Lagoon.




fucking disappointed.
how does it feels like to be keeping your hopes high
& have it smashed to a trillion pieces?
i was so looking forward to movies with you
& you just had to spoil everything.




whatever.
i won't be free for you anymore.
even if i'm free, i don't think/not sure i wanna see you.




i think my illness(kidney infection) is coming back...
my kidneys are starting to hurt again.
i should take note of my diet but time & time again,
i didn't.
yah, i just don't know how to take care of myself.
(though i alway claim i knew how to)




i just hope i don't come down with a fever,
else i needa stay in hospital for God-knows-how-long.
i can't!
Irene(colleague) is flying to HongKong next week,
& there's no one to cover me if i fall ill.




i have to work full shift straight for 11 days till i get an off.
i hope my body can tolerate it & not break down.
):




wish me all the best for my health.
the year of the Rat is suppose to be a year of good health for Monkey(me)
but i don't know why i'm so prone to sickness.







p.s oh yah, boss didn't come today.
he'll come tomorrow for sure.
hope everything goes smoothly...





p.p.s will you take care of me?