L.O.V.E me for me

2008-12-07T17:50:00.001+08:00

work.

why are kids getting more & more dumb?

2008-11-27T17:58:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK?!
WASN'T ONLINE SINCE THE LAST POST TILL NOW.
DAMN!
WHY WAS I IMPLICATED?
SMART PEOPLE KNOW IT ISN'T MY DOINGS,
THOSE STUPID MEANINGLESS TAGS...
JUST WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE IMBECILES???
SO FREE, FIND A JOB & MAYBE EARN SOME MONEY
INSTEAD OF RELYING ON YOUR PARENTS.

TAGBOARD REMOVED.
PEACE AT LAST.
LEAVING THIS PLACE TO ROT.
MAYBE I'LL DELETE IT SOMEDAY(OR RETURN)
TOO BUSY TO MEDDLE WITH TIME-CONSUMING STUFF.
IF YOU THINK YOUR WORDS CAN BRING ME DOWN,
SAD TO SAY SO... I WASN'T THE LEAST AFFECTED.
JUST WANTED TO MAKE THINGS CLEAR....
I HATE BEING WRONGED.
(geraldine's blog had been removed. i have no idea what's going on
or even if some assholes had used my name to spam her
& resulted in me, getting implicated in these childish catfights)

duh...
if you hate her, go right to her face la.
scared you'll get a slap?

facts

2008-11-19T13:05:00.002+08:00

if only you can control your body from falling sick...
think of the troubles that won't come your way.
it is as if i ask for a weak body/a body that keeps getting ill.

makes no sense right?

that one loves going to the doctor & spending almost 1/8
of her/his money on medical fees.
(what a waste! imagine the good foods & pretty clothing you've to give a miss)

plus taking horrible pills/meds that might have a side effect in the future.
(medicines are actually harmful if taken in excess or mixed with others etc.)

it totally sucks as you'll be all alone when everyone goes to work,
not able to go anywhere just a computer & a DS to keep you company
till the rest come home.
(for your info, i hate watching TV)

if i were really faking it, i think i'll be enjoying myself this very minute.
if im really not ill, i don't suppose my voice will sound so nasal
& my cough to be chokeful of phlegm.

talking about phlegm, good for you if you're able to cough & spit it out
without much force.
i cough till my face turns red & till i felt like throwing up
but the stubborn phlegm just won't surface.
(did i mention my phlegm contained blood because i cough too hard?)
& it's awfully unpleasant as when i talk my mucus & phlegm will clog up
my nose & i have difficulty breathing.

doc says it could be due to my sinus (that apparently got worse).
& she says i have to avoid PEOPLE WHO SMOKES, dusty/smoky areas
& refrain from exerting myself (includes no heavy duties/chores for me)

hafta drag myself to Habourfront tomorrow
to pass some paperworks to my soon-to-be in-charge.

humans are very realistic.
*shakes head*
my principle: i tolerate without voicing my displeasure to anyone
but when i really can't take it anymore i'll just leave or shoot back.
simple.

before speaking your dissatisfaction of another, think back,
have you done something that others might hate as well?

do you rightfully do what you're supposed to do?
or just eat away at people's advantages?

before opening your damned mouth to insult (or praise?),
just think... do you tend to do the same thing as well?

if speaking unkind remarks behind that person makes you feel
superior or ease down your anger, please do so
because apparently i have no time to deal with such idiots.
stooping down to their level is simply degrading.
:D

whatever...
hate me? dislike me?
i will treat you normally to make you feel guilty.
treat people the way you want to be treated.
you loathe people speaking bad about you than don't do that to others.
so dumb.

why can't humans just live harmoniously together?
because humans tend to compare.
why do i have to do this & she can relax?
so on & so forth.

In 3 words, I can sum up everything I learn about life:
It goes on...

why is this happening?!

2008-11-17T18:14:00.001+08:00

Take your time to watch these clips & read.
If these clips don't have an impact on you/shock you,
I have nothing more to say.
If you want to stop these inhumane acts,please sign the petition.
I've submitted mine,so please pass the word around & stop this.
I'm all against animal abuse, these clips were horrifying to the extent that
I don't dare to listen to the entire clip,much less view it.
(im not even sure if there is sound)
I felt pain for those animals, but it's the same category(humans) as me that
brought so much pain & sufferings to them.
Don't those humans feel the pain? Imagine being skinned ALIVE?
They're bound to be punished. What comes around,goes around.
(I felt like typing vulgarities here. I felt like cursing them. But it's useless.)

WARNING!
viewer discretion advised.
contents are violent & abit bloody

Help Stop the Cruel Fur Industry.

Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org.

Skinned Alive.

When undercover investigators made their way onto Chinese fur farms recently, they found that many animals are still alive and struggling desperately when workers flip them onto their backs or hang them up by their legs or tails to skin them. When workers on these farms begin to cut the skin and fur from an animal's leg, the free limbs kick and writhe. Workers stomp on the necks and heads of animals who struggle too hard to allow a clean cut.

When the fur is finally peeled off over the animals' heads, their naked, bloody bodies are thrown onto a pile of those who have gone before them. Some are still alive, breathing in ragged gasps and blinking slowly. Some of the animals' hearts are still beating five to 10 minutes after they are skinned. One investigator recorded a skinned raccoon dog on the heap of carcasses who had enough strength to lift his bloodied head and stare into the camera.

Before they are skinned alive, animals are pulled from their cages and thrown to the ground; workers bludgeon them with metal rods or slam them on hard surfaces, causing broken bones and convulsions but not always immediate death. Animals watch helplessly as workers make their way down the row.

Background

Undercover investigators from Swiss Animal Protection/EAST International recently toured fur farms in China's Hebei Province, and it quickly became clear why outsiders are banned from visiting. There are no regulations governing fur farms in China—farmers can house and slaughter animals however they see fit—meaning miserable lives and excruciating deaths. The investigators found horrors beyond their worst imaginings and concluded, "Conditions on Chinese fur farms make a mockery of the most elementary animal welfare standards. In their lives and their unspeakable deaths, these animals have been denied even the simplest acts of kindness."

Living Hell

On these farms, foxes, minks, rabbits, and other animals pace and shiver in outdoor wire cages, exposed to driving rain, freezing nights, and, at other times, scorching sun. Mother animals, who are driven crazy from rough handling and intense confinement and have nowhere to hide while giving birth, often kill their babies after delivering litters. Disease and injuries are widespread, and animals suffering from anxiety-induced psychosis chew on their own limbs and throw themselves repeatedly against the cage bars.

Is there a skeleton in your closet?

The globalization of the fur trade has made it impossible to know where fur products come from. Skins move through international auction houses and are purchased and distributed to manufacturers around the world, and finished goods are often exported. China supplies more than half of the finished fur garments imported for sale in the United States. Even if a fur garment's label says it was made in a European country, the animals were likely raised and slaughtered elsewhere—possibly on an unregulated Chinese fur farm.

contents taken from http://www.petatv.com
more videos are at http://www.petatv.com

-......-

2008-11-17T13:23:00.007+08:00

im bored & ill.

sucks to be alone.

going back to playing my DS ._.

(needa go for a photoshoot............)

updated 5:34pm

New York New York's food isn't that fantastic at all.

(food was below average for me)

meat wasn't marinated,just grilled,fried or whatever

& average sauces drizzled on top.

(so simple. i also know)

-.-

service at Lot1 sucks to the max.

super slow & staff are not passionate enough.

BOO!

should just stick to eating Jap cuisine.

but after eating at Rakuzen,

i will most likely not patronise

Sakae Sushi,Suki Sushi,Aijisen & those common Jap eatries anymore

(psst. their rice is super lousy)

me like rakuzen's & sushi tei's rice!!

^o^

P/S. Yes To Carrots Berry Lipbalm is yummy!

mmmmm~

not dead. not yet

2008-11-12T16:38:00.003+08:00

away from my blog for too long has gotten my

creative juices all dried up.

wanted to blog about the newly add-ons to my shop,ICH.

(which are really unique t-shirts)

but, have no inspiration on how should it go...

sidetrack.

i've been ill. (yes again again again)

needa go for a checkup which i've ignored a few months back.

Hospital has been real persistent,

sending my mum smses & now a letter

(which dated 29jul but i just happened to remember it -,-)

have to go for a DMSA scan on the 27NOV

& a trip to the Specialist on the 9DEC

luckily it's my day off & anata's too.

else i would have skipped it again.

____________________________________________

have to get my stuff photocopied.

have to make a trip to G2000 for my black pants.

have to find a comfortable black suede flats.

because as from 1DEC, im working at habourfront's

The Body Shop.

interview was very smooth & successful.

am looking forward to a better pay, more stable job with courses.

(though it may be tougher & not so relaxing like in Far East)

_________________________________________________

do come down as Ich is having a BIG promotion.

never happened before

20% discount on all watches

(plus 1year warranty)

and

40% off ladies handbags

*my off is on every thursday*

Ich watches are sold in Far East Plaza only

(Ich other outlets are in Hongkong & Taiwan)

Christmas is round the corner,

so drop by & take your pick.

give up those cheapo watches with fake leather straps

give up those watches without warranty...

because what you pay is what you'll get.

a lil' more will get you raving about how good it is.

i personally owned a watch from Ich

& currently it's a no.1 for me

as it's very versatile & chic.

i got anata's watch from Ich too

& now he can't leave the house without his watch

as he'll feel uneasy.

(true! those that don't believe can ask him about it)

*away from topic*

am currently at my home as there's no one

at anata's home to keep me company.

it was pouring real heavily just now.

thunder was fucking loud & i was scared.

it feels so eerie...

luckily Albee was beside me.

but he too got startled & was shivering.

=.=

glad that it's over now.

ok, back to Ich.

i've been working there for almost 6months(?)

have grown very close to the people there.

have grown very used to goofing around & hardly being serious about work.

i don't know if i'm able to break through...

feels real bad inside for leaving...

but i know that i can't stay working at Far East forever.

18more days & i won't get to see them often

or even gossip around.

but it will do me good...

so, i'll stay light-hearted & look forward to a brand new experience.

very hungry now.

not yet eaten.

waiting for catering...

i have tons of funny photos that's in anata's computer.

will upload them when im free.

till then, sayounara

short one

2008-11-03T22:31:00.002+08:00

spending my time downloading DS games using torrent now...

can't seem to find street fighter )':

waiting for anata to be back with food.

im kinda hungry...

online blogshop hopping.

nothing i fancy.

im bored.

stupid migraine.

a step into my complex thinking...

2008-10-30T21:13:00.003+08:00

i am really damn fucking annoyed.

1st) stupid Internet connection that's fucking slow & won't allow me to sign in to MSN.
2nd) stupid mouths of people that just can't fucking shut up.
(i didn't step on your tail so mind your words)
3rd) sick of this guy's constant restrictions,naggings & more...

left alone at home.
wanna chat online but couldn't thanks to don't know what shit.

have a DS to accompany me but am sick of constantly playing it.
talking about DS, i got it 2weeks ago.
i fucking used my own hard-earned salary...
not take/demand money from him.
he didn't even help me pay a single cent for it,
yet there are talks saying he is stupid using his money on me.

HELLO~~~

right,he's drawing in much more than me but the most he
gave me is $100
& that is nothing.
my transportation fees per month itself is close to $100.
not to mention when he runs out of money im the one
who help pay our meals till he got his salary.

you may say food is so cheap,how much can you spend on food?
i spend very little on food as i personally don't eat much,
but have you seen this guy eat?
he can spend $50(or frigging more) a day just on food & tidbits.

yes,he has money to buy what he wants.
but he didn't do so, why?
my fault? i use his money? i took all his money?
no.
he thinks it's not worth it, he rather spend the money on food.
yes, he may want it badly but he never buys it.
my fault? i did ask him to spend it on a PSP if he wanted it so much.
yet he just brush it aside.

do people know im intending to buy him branded stuff?
like agnes b & gucci?
do you big mouths know anything?
did i talk bad about you?
just don't make me tell your secret(to your parents?)
im sure you'll get a hell of a time.

i can be super nice but i can be very mean too.
my thinking have surpasses beyond what normal teens comprehend.

i can have him (or my family) die right infront of me yet i won't shed a tear.
it's not that i don't love him( or my family) or im a sadist.
everybody came to this world alone & everybody MUST leave this world alone too.
so why cry when nothing can save anyone when they're dead?

in this world everybody had been a two-headed snake at least once.
everybody is living for themselves.
they might help you when you get in trouble but that's because
their position doesn't clash with yours.
if helping you,means they too get in trouble i doubt they'll even answer your calls for help.

when mum wanted lassie to be put to sleep
i cried & objected to it.
but after that my heart just grew more stone-like.
i agreed. on that day when my mum brought him to Mt pleasant
to be put to sleep, mum & sis cried.
but i didn't. i just didn't have any feeling inside.

im in a phase whereby i've let go of everything.
[chinese: kan de hen kai ; jue]
nobody can understand how i look at things unless they too have reached this phase.

i have a friend, his wife left him because his business failed.
he too have the same thinking as me.
No, we did not resign ourselves to fate.
just that after all we've been through, we're just protecting ourselves.
in the midst of protecting, we've become so cold that we didn't know.

it's not easy to open up & i won't.
i don't trust anybody not even my family or him.
i can pretend so much that you don't even know what im thinking.
i can be very friendly towards you but behind all that jazz
you can never figure out.

i don't need anyone who cares because in the end when they're in
dire straits they'll most likely turn the tables on you if needed.

comments,tags on this post is not needed.
im very sure what kinda person i am.
& im sure i don't need that guy's money to survive.
i didn't ask for any, he gave me on his own accord.
but after those unkind remarks on me,
even if he beg me to keep the money i'll throw it away.
money is not important anymore.

im a 16 year old.
but i find it hard to mix with my age group,
i find it hard to communicate with him too.

walking away, i need somebody that understands me
to crease all those quarrels & shits.

home connection rules!!!

2008-10-27T22:38:00.002+08:00

jumbo lolly & my agnes b bottle all filled up with stars

jumbo hot pink rabbit. ^^

it's not supposed to be so act cute

my eye with the sickening infection afew days back

am eating popcorn at my house now.

very lazy to blog.

another time...

sayounara

&%$@

2008-10-23T22:37:00.007+08:00

agnes b mineral water bottles.

filling up the rose one with stars....

milk heart shape biscuits from HOKKAIDO,JAPAN.

not china.

super nice! i like.

long overdued pics

i just hate using anata's home internet connection.

super duper slow & lots of problem.

stupid vodafone mobile connection.
use until im damn frustrated...

now is already 11.10pm, look at the time that i started blogging.

=.=

waited fucking long for pics to be uploaded & such.

thus i avoid using his com,therefore lagging back on updates.

arghhh.

angry.

dont feel like blogging already.

stupid duck rice!

2008-10-12T22:05:00.003+08:00

*WARNING*

Sunshine's place duck is dirty!!!
anata & me ate it & we both got food poisoning.
had the runs over 10times!
went to see the doctor yesterday & i got mc for 2days.
was alot better after eating the medicine prescribed.
anata's fever had also subsided after i repeatly sponged him yesterday.

will try to go to work tomorrow if im able too.
still having giddy spells,
but am drinking 100plus to replenish my fluids.

don't know what's wrong with anata's com.
can't reply tags -.-
so i'll reply them by post.

to wanting: dfs galleria is just opposite of far east. not sure if blogshops selling the real thing.

to x: im not using yearly contacts. im using monthly's. anyway,thanks for the info!
eyes getting better already.

to jocelyn: nope. still using the 9800****

eating an apple now.
will update soon...
(finally getting my full length mirror in my room tomorrow)

hope my family is well & fine (:

stupid eyes

2008-10-08T12:45:00.004+08:00

oneesan is soooo kawaii!

this was taken in my mum's room while im curling

my hair & she talking to jie fu.

notice the white fur?

it's my new rug!!!

LOL

nah, it's albee.

armed with a brush & curling thongs

to make my curls more defined.

random shoots i chose cause my hair looks

just the way i wanted it to be.

watched Mirror(or is it mirrors?) yesterday.

it's bloody gory & spine-chilling...

BUT great film!

though don't really understand the reason behind the mirrors

attacking innocent beings.

anybody know????

tell me~~~~
^^

cute hoodie (:

i look so tan here...

should i get a tan?

my skin colour is 10x lighter than this!

i can be blogging at this time because

i didn't go to work.

my right eye was already quite red yesterday

& today it became full-blown swollen & red.

dammit.

my left eye also infected )':

i've washed both eyes with eye lotion but it doesn't seems

to get rid of the sting.

don't know what causes this...

maybe im exposed to strong air-con for long periods of time

thus my contact lenses becomes too dry

infecting my poor eyes.

imma typing this with half closed eyes,

very painful...

going to sleep once i finish this post.

let you have a look at the severity of my eyes.

super swollen lid & red insides.

so ugly & painful.

)': )':

off to bed.

just me

2008-10-06T22:30:00.002+08:00

FINALLY.

curly hair!

I STILL HAVEN GET THOSE PICS FROM THE PHOTOGRAPHERS!

so i'll blog when i get them.

i'll combine those pics with the ones i took.

(damn lazy to upload now, so i'll do it once & for all soon?)

i look more like a plastic mannequin now.

.____.

i must blink my eyes & move around more

else customers will get a shock.

sneak peek

2008-10-04T20:03:00.002+08:00

will upload the rest soon.

joyous day

2008-10-03T18:11:00.004+08:00

im on leave till Sunday.

Mumsie's ROM today & im totally worn out.

will upload pictures once i've gotten them from the photographers.

i got bitten by giant mosquitoes & was fucking pissed off.

the weather was so bloody hot today &

the bites were so itchy!!!

more about that another time.

there's a buffet lunch on Sunday.

so loads of pictures.

pics taken when i went for food-tasting.

uploaded only 3, will upload the rest with the ROM pics(?)

busy busy like a bee!

going out for dinner soon...

me & oneesan ^^

*************

LOL.

when i said i was going for my ROM fitting...

i mean im a bridesmaid for my mum.

yes,i'll be getting married

but not at this age, not now.

my anata looks very cute & smart today!

sayounara~

finally an update

2008-09-29T23:28:00.002+08:00

IM AS BUSY AS A BEE!
the big day is nearing & needa tie up the loose ends.

wearing my own dress on the ROM date.

there's bound to be loads of photos.

going for a food-tasting tomorrow...

(shall update again about that)

i'm sick of my straight hair.

am very lazy to curl it like last time.

>.<

i miss my nice long, thick permed hair!!!

this was last christmas?!

LOL.

shall get my hair curled soon.

heh heh.

anata cooked butter scallops for me yesterday.

yums...

maybe ask him to cook again later.

short update.

will do a better one when i've ample time.

damn

2008-09-24T22:21:00.002+08:00

sore throat persisted. now i have ulcers too.
damn.
can't eat almost everything!
speaking hurts even swallowing of saliva hurts.

im hungry~
but i don't wanna eat porridge.
)":

sick

2008-09-22T16:30:00.002+08:00

i cooked mushroom & herbs pasta + crab meat & prawns.

shared it with mum & i got a sore throat.

=.=

not sure was it the pasta or coincidence.

(cant be pasta right?!)

sickie at home.

having sore throat. on-off slight fever.

was supposed to see a doc this morning but....

din went in the end.

took some strepsils & off to sleep.

with some liang cha i think i'll be ok.

)':

food again...

2008-09-20T00:38:00.005+08:00

おいし　ね!

(OISHI NE!)

ebi ten made by anata.

he's still a junior chef & a very promising one.

sushi might not be perfect but at least it's near prefect.

ebi were fried to a nice crisp outer yet soft & tender on the inside.

i kept stuffing myself with these heavenly treats.

(i swear im not exaggerating. im a very picky eater &

when i say something is nice. it is really nice)

sushi awaiting to be cut.

anata.

LOL

he ask me not to take picture of him but i've already snapped.

his hand is not touching my breast.

do not think otherwise.

gone crazy...

i just ate alot of sushi, now im full to the brim.

took a video of how anata made the sushi but

dont know why it couldn't be read.

)':

drinking greentea now...

not pokka greentea but nice bitter tea!

my fave~

watching money not enough 2 now.

dont know watch it for how many times already.

.___.

(anata watching cos he din watch it before.)

so full~~~

can't sleep.

zzz.

off on sunday...

last fitting for my ROM dress.

sidetrack:

SK-II products really do have effect.

(facewash,clear lotion & treatment essence is a must for me)

(my skin is more radiant than before!!)

im lovin it...

愛してる　あなたY

glorious food

2008-09-18T04:12:00.002+08:00

omg!!!

i can't resist seafood & kyuri(japanese cucumber) !!

seafood-fresh prawns & crab meat(real crabmeat not the fake one)

i just had these a few hours ago.

just boiled & lightly sprinkled with salt

to taste the au naturel sweet meat.

thanks to my in-home chef!

(anata of course)

he helped me slice the cucumber & boil the meat to perfection.

YUM.

just thinking about it makes me hungry for more.

.____.

maybe get to eat sushi done by him for my lunch later.

(crosses my fingers. i wanna eat sushi badly...)

you saw that anata?

i want eat sushi.

*pouts lips*

work tomorrow & im still not tucked in bed.

shit.

i'll be on time for work, no worries.

(;

she wants to be me

2008-09-17T21:09:00.003+08:00

At first I told myself
I need my head inspected
I know to settle things
Seeing t-shirts and blings?
Then it got weirder, see
She's analysed my smile
She does like, sounds like me
She's stealing my identity
Somebody notice, somebody notice
She's so obsessed with me
And now her stupid games
Have started taking over
What have I got to do to make them see
That whore is a wannabe
And she wants to be me

:D
something i thought of whilst listening to
Busted-She wanna be me(or is it 'she wants to be me'?)
not directed at anybody though (*winks*)

it sucks to be alone with nothing to do.
(actually there's loads that can be done)
but all i wanna do is laze in bed repeating
"im bored. im bored"

don't ask me to watch TV,
as i loathe watching it.
unless there's some interesting documentries
or Miami Ink airing.
baaaaahhhhhh baaaaaaaaahhhh
(gonna follow britney & be annoying weird.
refering to me trying to act as a lamb 'baaaahh')

my mind is currently empty.
don't know what else to add.

ending here...
sayounara

...

2008-09-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

i've ran out of things to blog.
do bear with me these few days.
will update when i get inspired!
LOL.

fucking pissed right now.
give in, taken advantage of.
cb.

updated

2008-09-13T00:04:00.003+08:00

dragon roll sushi from Rakuzen.

left-my half finished hp case

right-irene's hp case

all done!

you know what?

im getting sick of my case.

maybe getting a plain one.

after all my effort, i have the urge to just get a new clean one.

this was so long ago.....

work tomorrow.

no mood to blog.

when all seems well...

2008-09-11T02:24:00.002+08:00

i'll blog prolly later when i wake up.
im having a splitting headache yet im still not in bed.

ARGH.
plagued with so many fucking issues.
yes, im a very self-centered/selfish person,
is that a problem to you?
(i don't wanna give a damn to anything that happens)

im angry/frustrated/helpless.
moving out soon.
need some breathing space.

picture heavy

2008-09-09T00:47:00.001+08:00

NAH, ELAINE & KAIYING.

YOUR PEEKTURES!

super lame.

my lunch box with dark chocolate digestive biscuits

she also wanna use as prop.

(digestive biscuits are high in fibre! good.)

=.=

my waterbottles.

(plain water is always better than sweet drinks!)

----END---

super cute lil baby.

he's still holding on to his bottle though he's sound asleep!

still sucking too.

awwwww...

(feel like squishing him. LOL)

chest of tidbits in my room.

only the greentea belongs to me.

the rest belongs to my skinny pig!

oneesan & me!

WARNING.

*heavy duty*

the rest from now is of me, me, only ME.

(told ya i was bored)

i have warned you beforehand so close this page now

if you detest my face.

:D:D:D:D:D

ignore the bag.

main purpose

ME LA!

those which seem like gaps are actually the crystals

without their shiny backings.

they're much lighter & clear.

really need to clean my mirror.

-.-

there's much more pictures of me but i din upload them.

don't wanna put you through hell.

hahahaha.

i was freaking angry this morning!

i was at the bustop waiting for 190

& suddenly i saw smoke coming out from my bag.

i was stunned & thought my handphone exploded.

(i know that's stupid)

i opened my bag & i saw a smouldering cigarette butt.

(still burning, still fucking hot)

it burned through my make-up case!

was lucky it didn't burn my bag or wallet

or damaged my phone.

i quickly picked it up & throw it on the floor.

i turned around wanting to scream at the fucking uncle who did that.

but he was already gone.
it makes my bag reek of cigarette!

super smelly, that's why i hate people who smokes.

GRRRRRRRRRR~~

GOT DUSTBIN FOR THOSE SMOKERS TO THROW

THEIR CIGARETTE BUTTS YET SOME STILL ANYHOW

FLICK HERE FLICK THERE.

cb,

think that their father/grandfather own the whole of s'pore is it.

even if there's no dustbins,

you can always throw it on the ground/grass

& BLOODY STEP ON IT to extinguish.

fuck.

(for your info i was sitting down.

how is it that, that a*hole flicked his cigarette butt INTO my bag?)

arghh. forget it.

just treat it that i was down on luck.

hope your shirt gets burned by your own cigarette butt someday.

im as busy as a bee.

oyasuminasai~

short entry

2008-09-08T11:44:00.000+08:00

i got 40++(maybe even 50) pictures of myself!
*gasps*

i'll always take out my phone & start snapping when im bored
& when there's nothing else to do.

i have no time to upload all of them.
(cause i wanna have more beauty sleep)

elaine & kaiying,
your pics have to wait till i stop procrastinating.
haha.
i'll try to post them tonight, but no promises.

gossip session with them yesterday,
as those sweetie pies came to find me at work!
(kinda miss miaomiao as she's not there )': )
still the same, as crappy as ever.
& kaiying became pretty & slim!
(no need to praise elaine as she's always skinny *hmmph*)

thanks to them else my day would be a killer.
(very boring)
:D:D:D:D:D:D
love ya. muackiexxs.

off to work~
my belove irene & gan ma will be around!
don't have to fear being bored to death.
(:

i hate today!

2008-09-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

taken a few days back.

im lazy.

very lazy to post all the pictures i have on hand.

=.=

life's a chore & bore.

i needa trim my eyebrows, i needa go for threading,

i needa buy new shoes, i needa save up,

i needa lose weight!

(i fat already lo. idiot.)

i needa complete my hp case!!!

(the back is done already, left the front.)

thanks to Pam for helping me (:

A FUCKING EMBARRASSING THING HAPPENED

TO ME JUST NOW AFTER WORK.

i slipped & fell in public!

i was wearing a SKIRT some more.

it was drizzling,

the floor was slippery thus zoooooomm

i fell.

luckily Irene & Gan ma were there to help me.

we laughed so hard till i was having stitches in my stomach.

everyone was looking at me,

but no worries

i didn't expose myself.

not even my panties.

i fell in slow motion, makes it more hilarious.

i was playing around waiting for Irene to open the umbrella.

so serves me right for falling

& hurting my bum & arm.

hahahahaha.

there's bound to be laughter & stupid moments

when i'm with Irene.

we took turns being crazy & acting silly.

im gonna miss her~

im working alone tomorrow, it's her off.

)':

Gan ma is going batam tomorrow.

wah,

double )':

side track:

im in love with ettusais' blusher!

superb.

a must-have makeup essential for all girls.

oh yah,

my watch have scratches. ):

so does irene's.

cause our watch clashed together when she was helping me up.

gonna send it to HongKong to change the glass.

triple )':

sorry to irene for scratching her

& her watch.

I'll never reminisce.

I let go in every way.

Cos every day I become,

A little less numb.

Like I don't even know you.

yesterday

2008-09-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

im bloody tired even though yesterday was my off.
i slept at 3plus am this morning
because i was busy sticking crystals on my hp cover.
shall post the pictures when im done with it.
it's not even half-done.
=.=

i came back home at 12midnight yesterday.
went Far East, Plaza Sing, bugis-topshop, bugis-BHG,Times Square 2, Suntec.

my chanel foundation refill is currently out of stock
>:(
so bought ettusais liquid foundation to replace it (for the time being).
1st time using it, hope it'll be good.
^^

went to Rakusen for dinner.
food was slightly above average but the decor is splendid!
will post pictures though not alot.

after dinner, went to Suntec's Carrefour for grocery shopping!
bought alot of stuff so cabbed back home.

i bet anata is as tired as me.
he'd accompanied me the whole day.
(even when im sticking the crystals)
thank you!

rough update about yesterday.
will do a more detailed one when im free.
currently wanna get my hp cover done!!!

off to work~
sayounara ^^

long post with pics!!!!

2008-09-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

finally a decent post with pictures.

seen this tissue packet before?

guess most of you did.

ain't it cute?

it was supposed to be meteor garden (is it? forgotten :x)

but then this shows meteor zoo.

i like the packaging! too bad the tissue quality isn't that great.

LOL

anata's cute baby cousin!

(no longer a baby though)

new phone.

so...

MUST CAM-WHORE LA!

taken at night in my room.

taken in the day in my room.

waiting for MRT with anata.

end of pictures.

now more about my day at work.

work was effing boring.

though it's holidays for those who are schooling

there aren't much people shopping at Far East.

.___.

at around 8plus,

two girls were caught shop lifting.

they're just students & of the same age as me.

once there is news of the shop lifters,

the whole stretch of shops around that area gather to watch 'show'.

i, of course was around to hear bits of what happened.

(i kaypo what. cannot blame)

the lady boss of that shop(shan't mention)

was furious & she report the matter to the police.

no chances were given to the girls.

police came & took their statements.

i was waiting to see if the girls would be hand-cuffed or not.

but until 930pm the police,boss & offenders

were still in the shop talking.

=.=

gave up, don't wanna watch already.

went off to meet anata.

we MRT-ed home & taked-away mac.

shall go & have my beauty sleep now.

after what had happened just now at work,

it makes me think twice about slacking during work.

what if there really are people who came & steal my watches?

i have to pay for the loss

unless i can throw my shoe at the culprit & nab him.

im sure to give the culprit a good whacking & scolding

before the police come to clear up the shit he've done.

(if i couldn't catch the shop lifter,

i'll make sure i remember his/her face[if possible]

& if i saw them around,

I'LL CUT OFF THEIR HAND IF THEY ARE WEARING MY WATCH!)

LOL

nah, i'll just hand them over to the police.

don't wanna hear no explanation, don't wanna give a damn.

just let the police handle it.

no point wasting my saliva & time on these shits.

im sick of the food in Far East.

)': )': )': )':

(think of something new that i can try?)

great day ^^

2008-08-31T23:10:00.002+08:00

OH HAPPY DAY!

got my new phone.
Sony Ericsson's G900!
(still experimenting with it)
thanks to anata!

had a great dinner & i've chosen my dress.
but that's not my final decision (i suppose)

pondering on whether should i or should i not be a model for her bridal webpage.
i don't think i have what it takes but she wants me to be.
shall not think too much about this,
whatever will be will be ya.

will upload pictures soon.
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

just another ordinary post

2008-08-26T15:53:00.003+08:00

*YAWN*
just woke up.
it's my day off today so why not stay in a lil longer in bed.
:D

my phone is abit hay wired.
there's something wrong with it.
sometimes the other party that called me can't hear anything
though i'd screamed a thousand 'hellos'
(you know im exaggerating. haha)

yea, that's why i seldom answer phones calls & rather stick to smsing.

getting a new phone on my next off day.
probably on 31aug or 4sep.

the question is should i or should i not get Sony Ericsson's G900?
was afraid it'll be bulky & laggy.
bah.
shall go & see what phone suits me best.
(:

gonna be busy on the 31aug.
needa go for a fitting for my ROM dress.
(YES! IM GETTING MARRIED!)
wahahahaha.
when & to whom, you'll just have to stay tuned.
^^

if i really wanna get my new phone on that day,
i guess i have to squeeze in a time slot for that.
i hate rushing about & having very restrained time.
):

it's gonna rain soon.
& lazing in bed in such a weather is the best!

watched Phobia yesterday & my verdict is...
ok-ok thai horror flick.
quite gory & abit much like FD3
(final destination 3, suakus)

guys should bring their other half to watch it
so when the girl jumps in fright, you can hug her & 'protect' her.
(gain points!!!)

but too bad if your love enjoys ghost/horror flicks
& is not easily frightened (like me.)

throughout the show,
i was more excited to know what's gonna happen next
than covering my eyes & hoping it'll end soon.

the only part when i got shocked was the ventilator(is it?)
suddenly dropped onto the student's head (killing him of course)
i didn't scream or shout, just merely uttered a 'fuck'.
LOL

shall end here.
update soonishxzxz when i have the time
(:

すきだよ.(SUKIDAYO)Y

updated

2008-08-24T22:58:00.002+08:00

i forgot what i wanna blog about.

ahhh.

forget it.

life's been very slow-paced.

enjoying every minute with love.

when you're feeling empty

keep me in your memory,

leave out all the rest.

nothing to update

2008-08-22T00:19:00.004+08:00

work work work.

tired. exhausted. dead beat!

fuck the fake shits

2008-08-19T23:43:00.003+08:00

(:
you look weird with you hair clip up, i think is becos you shown your
eyebrown? i think you putyour fringe down will be better:D

19 Aug 08 00:59 75.126.186.82

(fuck, don't even know how to spell eyebrow.)

augustine - mummy
u go get new husband then come n talk la! HAH!

19 Aug 08 19:19 75.126.186.82

Augustine
For your info. This is fake augustine, Is not me. So dun give me .l. and
wtf?

19 Aug 08 21:12 75.126.186.82

don't try to give me constructive comments
& then use my friend's name to make things worst.
you want to tag, use your fucking name.
for fuck sake i don't need your comments on how will i look better.
i know im definitely better looking than you.
if im not, PROVE ME WRONG.
you don't even dare to state your name
so you must be very hideous looking.

owner of 75.126.186.82 is a bloody coward.
from the words & typing style,i think that it's a girl.
just don't fucking let me find out who you are.
or if you're that bitch or that bitch's friends,
you better be very wary of what you do/say

everybody knows i don't have a friendster.
a fucking bigmouth say that that bitch spam my friendster huh?
if you dare to say,dare to own up
instead of hiding & putting your blog as private.
i know more embarrassing & ugly truths about you pigs.

i have a limit to my tolerance.
i think i've closed one eye far too long.
just don't make me pull you out of your school & shame you in public.
don't think that im kidding or stating this for fun.
you just don't know what trouble you had brought upon yourself now.

im searching & i won't close this matter till i find out who is that fucker.
that fucker,you better think twice before your next move.
your tail won't be hidden for long.

no, this is not child's play.
i can bring this up another level that you won't be able to afford.
lawyer fees, i think your measly macdonald salary is not even enough to pay a quarter.
try me.

one entertainment after the other

2008-08-19T00:31:00.001+08:00

bored at work.

watching MTV as usual.

needa do spring cleaning at work thus i pinned up my fringe.

I HATE MY MUSCULAR ARMS!

)':

what if i were to cut my hair short?

hmmmm....

nah. i wanna have long & thick hair.

this is how edamame looks like.

(japanese soy beans)

あなた cook this for me.

*beams*

you'll see this in most sakae or suki outlet.

sometimes they are placed in the conveyor belt with the sushi.

but i don't eat that.

i like it nice & hot instead of cold & dry.

you only eat this.

the outer layer cannot be eaten.

saw this while on the way to Millennium Walk.

so cute.

panda bus.

=.=

she deleted her friendster account.

doesn't she find it a hassle

to create a new account just to make another friendster account?

she's really guilty. if not why delete her blog & friendster.

too ashamed to face the world?

i thought she enjoyed being a little celebrity in the limelight.

just don't let me find out your new blog's url & friendster account.

you're like a watchdog. keep checking back on my blog.

._____.

my tagboard is so so so happening.

thanks to the peeps who stand up for me.

i know even without a cert my intellectual surpasses yours.

my あなた is so kawaii

ask me pin up his fringe...

i miss irene.

LOL

never see her for a day only.

oyasuminasai~

^^

2008-08-18T13:45:00.005+08:00

LOL.
pot calling the kettle black.

i have friends/sister/cousins there for me
even if i didn't ask for their help.

sometimes i feel for you for not having true friends.
(for your info, it isn't wei lun nor wan ting. use your brain)
hahaha, but now, it isn't my business.
why am i so stupid to try & defend you last time.

well so long.
it's ok with me that you're not my friend.
because it doesn't really matters.
:D

updated.
timecheck: 3:57pm

i kinda feel bad now.
doushite? i don't know.
ah fuck.
just continue living well like how you're doing now.
im not going to apologise. things were just wrong at the start.

update before going to work

2008-08-17T11:37:00.002+08:00

=.= =.= =.= =.= =.= =.=
THAT BITCH DELETED HER BLOG.
nb, no more entertainment for me.

know what, she emailed me regarding about the post i wrote on her.
after all her desperate attempts to prove that she's innocent,
she's infact guilty.
if not why make your blog as private & now delete it.
im sure you changed URL.
never mind, i still can search. & it won't take long.

this is getting boring just when i thought things were heating up.
aiyah, just gonna let the matter rest as long as she don't let me
find something to blog about her.

her friendster shows a picture that can't see her face.
too shy or maybe no face to show people.
add her to view her profile as hers is restricted to friends only.
im sure she'll accept your request (:
email addy: liting_jingw@hotmail.com

you came to find me yesterday & through all your questions
i can see & sense jealousy or is it you're unhappy about some things?
LOL.
you asked me which guy im with now,
everybody knows im not such a flirt/heart breaker like you.
so which unlucky girl are you with now?
my blog is boring...
then don't read it. it wasn't meant for your eyes anyway.
:D

untitled

2008-08-17T03:51:00.003+08:00

just reach home.
im super duper tired.
eyes closing soon but i wanna eat mcmuffin before i go to bed.
LOL.
shall update more tomorrow.

******
GOT SOME JUICY UPDATES ON THAT LITTLE IMBECILE!
will blog soon.
chong li ting, ah, chong li ting. i look forward to your email reply.
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL. im laughing at you.
:D:D:D

oyasuminasai!

coward!

2008-08-16T11:08:00.003+08:00

=.=
can't afford to play then don't play in the beginning.
scared of losing
& having your face splashed across my blog
than why start the ball rolling?

things have just started to heat up.
& now you decided you wanna pull out of the game?

putting your blog as private now only proves to me & some others
that you are indeed guilty.

running away is not a solution.
sad loser.
^^

come on, you can definitely do better than that.
LOL
maybe an apology will do you some good huh kid.

pictures & more about the sickening copycat

2008-08-15T23:52:00.002+08:00

strawberry mousse cake.

nice to look at, great at taste, but high in fat!

i particularly don't like cakes but little delights like this

make me hungry for more.

(salivating already. LOL)

tall spiral structure at Millennium walk.

im interested in different structures & architecture.

i spent my long bus rides/transportation time

looking out the window

locking on every building/structure in sight into my mind.

i find them very fascinating.

& i love pretty cottage houses to mod glass apartments.

super cute lil' baby girl!!!

i'll see her at least once a week.

her maid will park her pram right in front of my shop

while her employer goes shopping.

she loves staring at me & she'll smile when i do.

awwwwwwwww....

but i still don't wanna give birth when im married.

& i still hate/loathe most babies/kids/children!

i totally have no patience when the latter

starts crying & misbehaving or whatever crap.

i most likely will smack them in the face.

yeah, i know.

what a horrid mum i'll be.

that's why i DON'T WANNA HAVE A CHILD.

(i may say that now, but as time passes, my thinking will change i suppose)

smiling with my teeth showed is not common

because i think my smile look very fake this way.

ahhh. whatever.

i haven't even starting scolding that copycat

any vulgarities or shoot her with insults.

yet she still couldn't see that i was willing to forgo the matter

as long as she just stop & for fucking sake be herself!

that is so typical of humans.

no trouble want find trouble.

(direct translation from chinese/hokkien)

i have been so far very nice with my words.

im not in the wrong, im not guilty.

i have no obligations to not reveal who the fuck you are

or mince my words.

everybody gets 3 chances.

but im not so generous.

you have the last one & only chance,

to reflect, start being your true self

& maybe you'll get enlightened to write an apology post to me.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

i can dig out the skeletons in your closet.

i can make your most embarrassing moments/ugly scenarios

known to public.

yes, it's a waste of time on girls like you.

but i'll go the extra mile

if you wanna play with me.

im waiting.

by the way, that girl is from bukit panjang govt high sec sch.

she's 1 yr younger than me

(thus i have all rights to label her as little/small girl)

IMMATURE LITTLE BRAT!

warning.

2008-08-15T11:33:00.004+08:00

i have an exploding urge to blog about you.
YES YOU COPYCAT.

my blog have at least 100 unique visitors per day.
i know it isn't alot compared to others,
but im sure it's enough for you to be a little infamous celebrity.

just don't go overboard.

i have enough of stalkers & i don't need a clone.

so little girl, just be yourself.
you don't neccessarily have to own things that others have.
know your limits, know where you stand.
stop trying so hard to be me, cause you'll never succeed.

i won't divulge your name for the time being.
DON'T MAKE ME DO A FULL LONG POST
WHICH INCLUDES YOUR URL,PICTURE & EVERYTHING.

i can do what i typed.
you don't wanna people to see your face
& laughed at you for trying so hard & failing miserably
to be someone you're not.

you better not delete your blog or try
to run away/deny everything after reading this post.
everybody has eyes, even if i didn't notice it...
i have ears ok.

you are a very very very regular reader of my blog,
i thank you for adding to my unique visits
but i can do just as well even without you.

i don't ever want to spot another annoying
trait or whatever that you wanna photocopy.

fucking pissed at such childish imbeciles.
i welcome your spams, for it showed you're gulity.

boring post

2008-08-13T22:47:00.002+08:00

irene & me at work!

Meet Dave is nice!!!

super hilarious.

(i don't know about you but i laugh easily at the slightest joke)

work was so-so.

kept eating =.=

just can't seem to be full.

ARGHHHH...

i needa save money & stop eating.

i don't wanna be a fugly fat poor woman.

.____.

didn't go for my facial appointment yesterday

for i was afraid it might make my rashes worst.

shall go next monday instead.

im bored.

i wanna eat my apple chips.

my blog is getting boring.

my brain is currently dead

& not in the mood to come up with a good post.

too busy with work, lacking of rest/sleep.

i need entertainment!!!

...

2008-08-12T15:28:00.002+08:00

cherry tomatoes & sushiya salad(japanese salad).

MY FAVOURITE!

ありがとうあなた＾＾！

hmmmmm....

my face really looks chubbier with curled hair.

somebody close to me had just pass away yesterday.

i was at work so i didn't get to see him for the last time.

i'll always remember you.

だけどおもうんだだれかのために

きっとぼくらわいきてる。

pics pics pics!

2008-08-10T22:52:00.003+08:00

OVERDUED PICS

suddenly, i think that my new hair color isn't

any different from the previous one.

=.=

anyway, was thinking of perming my hair

(so that i don't have to wake up so bloody early everyday just to set my hair)

saves me all the effort.

but then again, i like the freedom of choosing what hairstyle

i want on different days.

bah, im so indecisive.

shall just leave my hair as it is

& waste my precious beauty sleep just to curl it.

)':

i pinned up my fringe because i didn't blow-dry my fringe correctly

& i was running late.

so i look so auntie lo.

curls then bo fringe....

my jumper is so cute~~

:D:D:D:D:D:D

my little book of what i spend on.

LOL ^^

GANBATTE!

i remember i kept telling you this...

i am fucking sleep deprived!!!

super dark eye rings are forming under my pair of eyes!

>:(

&&&&&&&&&&

im having some god-damn allergy/rashes

all over my body except my limbs.

)':

so itchy!!!

but i must not & cannot scratch!

lest it leaves ugly scars~

taken some medicine & the hives have minimise.

im alone tomorrow!!!
have to tend 2 shops alone as it's Irene's off & Celest has exams.
):
im gonna be bored to death!!!
who wanna help me look after 1shop FOC(free-of-charge)?
:D

my new waterbottles!
ain't they cute?
Y bought them for me!
^^

stitch & chip&dale.
HAPPY~~~~

gonna enjoy my california handroll now.
:P

updated!

2008-08-09T11:04:00.002+08:00

i've been coming home late the past 3 days,
hence the lack of updates.
too tired to even switch on the computer lest blog.

my boss sent our stocks through shipping
& it reached us yesterday.
IT WAS 5 SUPER DUPER BIG BOXES OF STOCKS.
imagine the hell that irene & me were put through
unpacking,counting,packing & displaying all of it.

to make matters worst,
yesterday was half-day for students.
they look,talk loudly,ask alot of questions,MESS UP THE DISPLAY
but never buy.
i expected it, that's why we seldom serve this kinda twerps.
(luckily there wasn't any Unity Sec students. else i really would have flare up)

waiting for my uncle to be back with my beehoon.
im starving...
shall go to work after eating ^^

happy birthday to you!
(nah, not s'pore. it's someone else)

swollen left eye=unhappy xingru

2008-08-06T11:41:00.002+08:00

im super lazy to curl my hair today.
=.=

MY LEFT EYE IS SWOLLEN!!
you can judge for yourself in the above picture.
painful~

what a bad start to my day...
well, shall go to work now,
hopefully the swelling goes down asap!

my day off was well-spent!

2008-08-05T22:17:00.004+08:00

i look dumb. BUT my hair color is no longer gold!!!
its a darker shade of brown. :D:D:D:D

spent 3hrs in the salon to get my hair done.
butt was very sore & i was dozing off.
aftermath went Bebe,Topshop,SHOPPING!
went Bugis to get my falsies.
cabbed back home.
currently eating Japanese Salted beans(edamame)
needa bath both my doggies later.

IM IN LOVE WITH MY BEBE FLIP-FLOP! YYY
THE BEANS ARE VERY DELICIOUS YET HEALTHY.
LOW-FAT SOME MORE.

i wanna collect more stitch

until it can be lined up to form my room's perimeter!

still munching on the beans. can't stop. ^^
super yummy lo

i enjoyed my day off alot!
thanks to my sweetie pie~
^^

putting a barrier where it should have been all along

2008-08-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

MY BABY IS SO KAWAII~

that's my sis in the background.

sorry to elaine as Albee is hugging the tigger she gave me.

>.<

every night i have to share my bed with Albee.

=.=

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------

sales was super bad today.

was kinda fed-up & irritated by those see-only-won't-buy customers.

ask so much questions, in the end never buy.

nb.

i hate people not doing out what they said/promised.

i hate 'All talk, No action' people.

these people aren't worth to even be acquaintance...

they should just be left as strangers.

strangers that belong to my history.

(you know im talking about you.

never promised someone something if you can't do it)

i hate people being calculative.

money is the root of all quarrels/problems

& yet money is the solution.

i've learnt.

i'll only use money that belongs to me.

Money that i work so damn hard to get.

i've fell & learnt.

never to trust,never to let anyone in.

the god at wk's sin tuah told me

'my heart is like stone.

my heart is hard & he said it isn't a good thing.'

know what.

sometime i just can't be bothered.

life is too short for regrets

thus i'll just do as i like/deem fit.

i believe i don't need anyone.

im fine being by myself.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------

needa wake up early for my salon appointment tomorrow.

YES!

it's my day off...

& i'm gonna enjoy every bit of it.

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for
you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true

CURRENTLY MY FAV SONG!

fall for you by secondhand serenade

you still read my blog...

i don't see the need to.

i wanna strike TOTO!

2008-08-03T22:37:00.004+08:00

box of Y

been coming home late the last 2 days
hence i'm sleep deprived!
):

waiting for my facial appointment & my salon appointment.
wait for pictures of my new hair & squeaky clean face!
LOL
that's so random
because im effing bored!!!

this is sucha short post but im taking a LONG time to finish it
because of distractions in MSN. ^^

gonna buy TOTO on 8august..
8MILLION LEH!
& i'll win it all !
HEH HEH
wait for my good news ah.
(even if i did win, i don't think i'll blog it out)
LOL :D

thinking too much about money...
i love money!
who doesn't?
but i don't wanna be a tai tai or spend someone else's money.
im gonna be a successful woman.
just you wait & see

having plans to go back to studying...
where? i won't divulge that :p

super short update

2008-08-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

nothing to blog about...
just came home. went for supper with wan ting&wei lun.

im gonna get sick again.
sore throat & pains in my kidneys are back.

i hope i get my pay soon~
i need cash!!!

shall end here.
i hate waiting for people. period.

friendster,procrastination >:(

2008-07-31T11:43:00.003+08:00

out of boredom, i decided to make a new friendster profile.

anyway,
it'll do me good as alot of people had been asking if i own a friendster account.

but then again,

procrastination got the better of me...

so TADA!
till today i've yet to even sign up for it.
=.=

this post is super meaningless.
i'm just waiting for time to pass as it's too early to go to work.
.___.
by the way, any kind souls wanna help me make a friendster account
& add all my current friends who owns an account????
:D:D:D:D

i'll be super grateful because i don't have the time for mediocre stuff like this!
i'm always busy working,sleeping,eating & SHOPPING.

if i could keep time in a bottle,
the first thing that i'd like to do
is to save everyday till eternity passes away
just to spend them with you

if i could make days last forever
if words could make wishes come true
i'd save everyday like a treasure and then
again i would spend them with you

if i had a box just for wishes
and dreams that had never come true
the box would be empty except for the memory of how
they were answered by you

i had a dream,
i dreamt of you.
then my phone rang,
it was you.
i was about to pick it up,
then it went dead.

shall update when i get back home from work.
sayounara~

!@#$%^&*

2008-07-31T00:48:00.002+08:00

I put my faith in you

What a stupid thing to do

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart

Tell me what do you do,

when it all falls apart

Gotta pick myself up

where do I start

Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart

爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈

我却还是学不会狠心对谁

"男人男人多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真

让我不必再心疼"

BAD MOOD.

boring post =.=

2008-07-29T22:55:00.004+08:00

sales was exceptionally good today for a tuesday.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

i'm a happy girl!

work went well.

that's i didn't get any annoying customers or hard to deal peeps.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

i'm a super happy girl!

i have nothing much to update...

so bored so bored.

have yet to eat my dinner

waiting for nice movies to be out...

so i can have movie dates.

waiting for those late night suppers...

so i can just unwind & talk cock!

heh heh :P

girls just wanna have fun

i don't like work

2008-07-28T22:50:00.002+08:00

work.

boring. stressful. source of income.

bah bah bah.

im getting real sick of going to work.

i wanna relax at home yet still have cash to spend.

i really need a holiday, a getaway.

(even if it's a short trip i don't mind)

really felt worn-out.

totally.

need a short time for myself to rejuvenate.

having migraine & it sucks.

left side of my head is throbbing with pain

& the right side is starting to hurt too

fuck.

guess i need ample sleep & rest.

i don't understand why people have to stare.

it's so bloody fucking rude.

i hate people staring at me.

especially those China ah peks/uncles.

look as if they have never seen a girl in their entire life.

_l_

watched Love Guru today.

again, it's not out yet in the cinemas i guess.

it's a very funny film!

but funny as in dirty jokes.

don't know what's the rating as it has crude language.

work tomorrow...

off on 5thAugust(shopping time).

waiting for pay to come rolling in~

a post of crap

2008-07-27T22:18:00.004+08:00

work didn't turn out as well as i expected.
needa adjust alot of chains & now my left index finger
is red with cuts.
alot of irritating people & few customers.
=.=

as usual i was playing around to kill time.

carrying celest bagpack on the left.

on the right:

carrying my shop's shark bagpack while watching MTV Asia Awards.

i know i look dumb, kiddish whatever...

I WANNA OWN A BAGPACK TOO!

but i have no use for it =.=

i look like a mannequin meh?

i got Eurasian ladies coming up to me saying

" you look like a lil' mannequin!"

in case you don't know what is a mannequin...

here.

not only those Eurasian ladies,
everyone whom i know says i do look like one
when i don't move or blink my eyes.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i don't wanna be a mannequin.

i know i scare some of my customers before.
they too thought that i was a mannequin,
until i started to move.
& they will say to each other in shock
" i thought she is a mannequin lo."

>:(
I DON'T LIKE.
even shu hui says so & even she got shocked.

ok, enough about me.
moving on...
i din get to see any good show yesterday night.

why?

because i wasn't suppose to see.
-.-
i was at my house void deck with albee on a leash.
brought him for a walk & he was super hyper.

was very curious about what's going on upstairs.
but i couldn't see & mum didn't tell me what happened.
no fun at all...

EVEN HONGKONG GUCCI OUTLET RAN OUT OF STOCK
FOR THE GREEN & RED LANYARD.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
I WANT LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!
don't know when they will be bringing it in again.
):

waiting for money to drop from the sky~
LOL
pay day is still so far...
die die die
i needa do some shopping, hands getting real itchy.
HAHA.

work tomorrow...
no life at all.i wanna sit singapore flyer~

this post alot of nonsensical stuff.
bah.

.......

2008-07-26T22:33:00.001+08:00

work today...
im super tired now but i can't go to bed.
because there will be people coming over at 12midnight
to catch ghosts.
yeaps, there's ghosts in my house.
2 some more (1male & 1 female)

i don't totally believe it yet i don't totally don't believe it.
gonna see good show later ^^

update more about the ghost hunting episode...
maybe tomorrow?

who wanna call me & chat with me later?
cause i'll be very bored as i can't use the computer
thus no MSN for me
)':

i still needa work tomorrow~
not enough sleep already la......
0.0

为何我爱的一切没有结果

2008-07-25T15:21:00.001+08:00

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道

当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
好喜欢你
知不知道

嘴角勉强撑起了笑
也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
因为我说:
"说到做到,提的起放的下"

就算是我傻的可笑
失去当成得到
只要能够对你好
我都会做到

你是否懂我的感受
说走却舍不得掉头

我不该爱的太重
让你我如此难过

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

也许我想得太多
也许该回到没我

***looking for authentic Gucci lanyard(green & red)
it's sold out in all SG stores & the newest winter collection
look very ugly lo. i don't like the color combination.
@#$%^&*!

dreams do come true?

2008-07-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

i get the same dream every night when i sleep.
& when i wake up, i remember every details.
is that dream telling me something?
will it eventually happen?

i'll just wait & see.

Wall.E is nice!

2008-07-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

watched Wall.E during work today.

i know the movie is not yet release in Singapore.

heh heh...

i always get to watch movies first even before its premier in Singapore.

the show is super cute~

& it brings a message across to us...

to reduce waste!

i don't mind watching it again :D

was wondering how are you lately.

busy with work? drinking with friends?

are you fine?

hope you are doing great with many big deals awaiting you.

Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings?

SICK!

2008-07-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

finally finally finally...

i knew that this day would come,

I'M SICK!

another 2 more days till i get my off day,

wondering if i can hang in there.

having a flu,cough & headache.

throat is starting to get sore, body is burning up.

i hope & pray that i get better & don't get a fever.

i must go to work tomorrow

as celest is only coming to help out at 6pm

(as she has school to attend)

i went to work without any make-up today

as my eyes were real puffy & i was too exhausted.

i slept for about 2hrs during work

cause i was feeling drowsy & ill.

gonna go have my dinner now.

needa rest early but i doubt i can sleep.

hungry~~~

2008-07-21T23:17:00.002+08:00

fooling around during work.

look how big the Devil slingbag looks on me.

this cost $75.

cheaper but i still prefer the Devil bagpack

which is apparently already sold out.

(in 2 days time)

cocked eyed!!!

:D:D:D:D

time seems to pass real fast during work today.

i managed to look after 2 shops till Celest comes.

feeling very very very tired now.

i've work full shift straight for 8days now.

i still have to hang on for another 4days till i get my off.

having a headache now, feeling cold too.

waiting for my pasta to be ready!

i've yet to eat my dinner.

stomach is starting to hurt...

i wanna change job!

i hate it that those memories kept replaying in my mind.

fuck, why can't i just forget.

(maybe if i get out of that place where i first met you,

things will be easier for me)

doushite?

i'm feeling happy at this moment :D:D:D:D:D

2008-07-21T01:51:00.000+08:00

im focusing on my curls on the picture on the left.

i think my dress is kinda short as i get many weird stares today.

=.=

it's not as if i wear boxers or panties only inside.

im wearing a jeans shorts inside lo.

stupid people.

>:(

lazing at Pam's shop...

i hate my muscular thighs & calves!!!!

look...

fucking ugly can!!!

ok, do not be shocked...

i think it's best you close this web page now.

cause, im gonna show you how i look like without

women's NO.1 essential,

MAKE-UP.

i look hideous.

LOL.

I HATE PEOPLE SAYING MY MAKE-UP IS THICK.

cause it's bloody not thick can...

you got see those ladies working at cosmetic counters?

that is what i call thick.

i've asked alot of people & they say i look almost the same

with & without make-up.

i don't know about you,

so here goes

me without make-up & without styling my hair.

COMPARE.

without makeup & styling of hair on the left

with makeup & styling of hair on the right

my idiot monkey says i look better without make-up.

he loves it when i do not make-up.

LOL. ^^

work tomorrow & i'll be alone tending 2 shops

until 6pm till Celest(colleague) comes from school.

wish me good luck!!!

GANBATTE GANBATTE~~

i spend money unnecessarily again.

i was moody just now during work.

so i needa spend money so that i'll feel better.

i have to change this habit of mine!

im left with a few dollars till my next pay yet i'm still spending

on unimportant things instead of food.

=.=

oyasuminasai (good night)

off to listen to relaxing songs & enjoy my mask.

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived

I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside

Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing

And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...

Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me

Tripping out thinking there must be more to life

Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more

there's gotta be more to life! :D

)': )': )': )': )':

2008-07-20T01:28:00.003+08:00

愛、どうして？

(love, why?)

short update (:

2008-07-19T22:38:00.004+08:00

work was fine.
kinda busy at the end.
i managed not to spend a single cent today!!!
(ate some bread that Pam made for me the whole day)
luckily i had no appetite to eat
else i won't be full with just bread in my tummy.

thinking of bringing Albee to East Coast park next friday
(25th), which is my day off.
i have to hang on for another 5 days & i can finally have a break.
GANBATTE!!!

just some thoughts...

yes, i love money. i yearn for unlimited cash to spend.
but i'm different.
i'm not that kinda lady that you met at some pub/club
that stays by your side just because of money.
i do not attach myself to someone because of money or any other motives.
i do not make friends with rich people just because i want them to pay for everything
when we're out for dates.
i never take advantage of my friends. & i never will.

beneath that mask, there's a lonely soul.
don't wait till it's too late to make a move.

如果放弃须要勇气
是不是我不够毅力

怪只怪我看错了你
怪只怪我相信了你
如果遗忘比面对容易
我怎么不能忘记

):

2008-07-18T22:49:00.006+08:00

was supposed to go watch The Dark Knight just now

with Ryan.

but i was tired...

well,

the main reason was i have no mood

no mood for anything!!!

(ARGH. what the hell is wrong with me?)

AIYAH.

NO MOOD TO BLOG ALREADY.

[shit, this is getting freaky. i have female stalkers too. wtf]

&&&&&&&&&& irene is flying to HongKong tomorrow!

i also wanna go for a vacation...

(i wanna go Hokkaido badly)

fuck!

im left with $30 to spend till i get my next pay.

i needa eat grass for my meals.

gonna pluck some from my house & bring it to work tomorrow

=.=

i said i didn't have the mood to blog.

yet im typing so much.

im not in the mood to do a proper update,

just snippets of what happened.

thanks ryan for letting me vent my frustrations & anger on you

these past few days.

sorry i keep hurling vulgarities at you in MSN.

i didn't mean it, you understand,

you know what's weighing heavily on my mind.

sigh.

photos & i need help!!!

2008-07-17T23:07:00.006+08:00

irene, my colleague.

i curled her hair today during work.

she look so kawaii !!!

the rest of the pics is me & my FAT FACE.

taken yesterday night when i went for supper.

wearing my ex-school basketball training tee.

i miss the days when i used to play & train hard with you, girls.

surprisingly,after 2years of not touching the ball,

i still can dribble perfectly.

(i tried it when i was at Carrefour,i took a random basketball & unknowingly

i was dribbling it without losing control)

but as for my accuracy in shooting & stuff,

i think i've lost it all.

maybe i should play basketball & reminisce those days, one fine day.

miao,elaine,

we shall go play basketball & see what has become of us.

(though i hate to perspire now. LOL)

i'm still as childish as before...

i still love playing swings in the night.

ohyah!
before i forget about this matter.
I NEED A MALE FRIEND
TO ACCOMPANY ME HOME EVERYDAY AFTER MY WORK!
(someone that can be trusted, of course)

know why???

i kept falling prey to stalkers.
i kept having people following me home after work.

FUCK.

i feel like some lamb sacrifice that would be eaten up by those wolves anytime.

that time was a creepy guy covered with tattoos.
this time round is a bunch of ahbengs.
what's next?

i always listen to songs when im in the bus.
my guess was,
those guys couldn't talk to me as i have my earpiece in my ears,
so they followed me home.

when i got down the bus,i begin keeping my earpiece while walking to my block.
then, they suddenly surround me
(like im some kind of animal on exhibition +.+)
as usual, "can i have your number?", "can we be friends?",
& more bullshits.

i was shocked because i didn't realise i was being followed.
now,im kinda scared to go home alone after work.
though it isn't late,(i end work at 930pm)
but i reach home quite late
as sometimes there's no 190 that i could get up.

FUCK LA.

WHY ARE THERE SUCH CRAZY PERVERTS

LIVING?????!!!!

you used to send me home by cab.
but then you got busy & i have to go home alone by myself.

I WANT I WANT!!!

2008-07-16T23:53:00.001+08:00

IT'S THE SONY ERICSSON G900!!

ok, i have my eyes on the Red version.

(or should i get black?)

im gonna get it!

the phone im using now(mum's old phone) is getting cranky.

it's slim & touchscreen!!!

but i wonder if it has japanese language.

awwwwwwww

have yet to check out the price,but i hope i get it asap.

pretty~~~~

GANBATTE XINGRU!

ok, im getting sick of random strangers

asking me where i got this top.

they kept saying it's nice & blah blah blah.

it's very annoying to answer the same question

everytime i wear this to work.

this top was a gift.

& maybe i won't wear it again.

i hate to be constantly reminded of him.

maybe it's time to let go yea?

what's mine will always be mine in the end.

just want you to remember,

i'm always there if you need me.

愛、どうして

2008-07-16T11:02:00.003+08:00

このままわすれられなくて
とじこめてわいられなくて
ふみこんじゃいけないとわかってても
このきもちどうしても gotta let you know
あつくはげしくうごくじかんのなかで
ほしいよきみのheart, boy...いっしゅんでも

かなわないこいにおぼれてもこのまま
ゆめからさめたくない,can't let go
わがままでもいい
ゆるがない愛がここにほしいよ

ときわとまり、そばにいなくても
i'm alright,なんてつよがり
でもとなりにいないとこころいたみ
just wondering if you feel the same
おなじきもちなのかたいしかめたくてまじ

あまくしずかにときわながれてくのに
からだがit's breaking apart, boy,どうして

こわれそうなくらいふあんになるだけ
oh whyひとりじめしたくなるの
なにもいわずにただきみの愛がここにほしいよ

まきもどすいろあせたきおくさいせい

sissy is hospitalized ): [UPDATED!]

2008-07-15T11:10:00.005+08:00

[UPDATED; TIMECHECK: 10:46PM]

Oneesan got admitted to hospital in the wee hours of morning.
She's been vomiting & having diarrhoea repeatedly.
I hope she's fine & don't have to put so much drips like me.
i wanna visit her but i can't. i have to work
& by the time my work ends, visiting hours are over.

furthermore i have to go down to hospital one of these days,
before my work, for a check-up.
so little time so much to do.

my next off day will be 10days later which is on the 25th.
i think by then she's discharged already.

i don't know if her friends read my blog but
i just wanna say,
my sister is in hospital so don't push the blame on her
if she doesn't participate in any of your discussions for projects etc.
it's not like she purposely got herself ill to skip those.

if that faggot starts whining & complaining to whatsoever
teacher in charge that my sister didn't contribute &
ought to be failed or have the lowest marks...
you better think twice, or else be very careful when you're alone ^^

i'm very protective of my sister & i don't like people to step on her
& thinks she's easy to bully.

you tend to miss simple gestures when that person no longer
shows them to you.

i wanna move in closer to you, i wanna know you better.
understand your deepest fears,share your greatest joys
but i don't wanna appear to be too sticky to you.
Or worst, you having the thinking that i'm treating you good
because i have some ulterior motive.

i wanna put in more effort,
but i'm afraid all my efforts will come to naught.

well, i'll just leave you alone.
you know i'm always there whenever you need me.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------
10:46pm

i just reached home.

i'm very tired though today was very slack.

don't know why im feeling so lethargic these few days.

i still needa hold on for another 9more days till i get an off day.

Irene is flying to HongKong soon, that means on certain days,

i have to tend 2 shops till Celest ends school.

i hope i can do it, i hope i don't get sick due to lack of rest.
bah, hate the fact that i get sick easily!!!

took some pictures to kill time/boredom.

I want this Devil bag pack!

but i have no use for this unless i go back to school.

=.=

for those who are interested, this bag pack is available at my shop,

Far East Level 3, Ich.

pricing: a whopping $85

(& sorry ah, no discounts)

stupid face on the right.

notebook bought from Paper People.

i use it to record how much i spend each day.

i have to because i want to save money for my education.

i miss ......

untitled

2008-07-14T22:01:00.006+08:00

i'm home!
early huh, that's because today's 190 is empty
& i could get up the 1st bus.

was supposed to watch Hellboy 2 today but i'm tired
& the others had plans.
i need to sleep, have been sleeping at very late hours these few days.

so, boss came today & he asked me to go to the bank(OCBC-Lucky Plaza) for him.
the queue is fucking long & i felt like fainting while queueing.
my eyes were feeling heavy & kept closing.
i guess im too tired, really worn out.

waited for nearly 2hours.
walked back after banking in the money.

work was bad.
sales was bad.
i still need to face my boss tomorrow.

i wanna get ralph lauren/burberry couple polo tees!
& i wanna watch Dark Knight.

ryan, you wanna treat me to movies??
(this coming friday after my work)
LOL ^^

sissy is sick.
hope she gets well soon.

remember me saying i wanna be a rich tai tai?
i take back my words.
money can buy alot of things.
but money can't buy everything...

a tai tai's life is miserable & lonely, though she has loads of money
but there's never that special someone always there for her round the clock.

P.S i wanna sit the Singapore Flyer~
i want the whole cabin to myself.
(like that then romantic ma, LOL)

beans,chips, SASHIMI !

2008-07-13T22:51:00.002+08:00

jelly beans i bought 2 days ago.

i bought about 3500grams & it cost $14.

bought it at Suntec's Carrefour during late night shopping with Irene.

SUPER NICE!

left abit now. shall go & buy more when i have the time

salmon sashimi !!

i ate about 18 slice of salmon sashimi & 8 salmon sushi.

really felt like puking after my meal.

of course i din just eat salmon la -.-

ate quite alot & i think ryan is shocked.

CAUSE I EAT ALOT FOR SOMEONE MY SIZE.

he din believe that i could eat so much,

now do you believe me?

lol.

delicious apple chips!

i always prefer these to potato chips.

(i never liked potato chips)

currently munching on them while blogging.

one of my all time favourites to satisfy my itching mouth.

these are so much healthier than chocolates or ice creams.
i guess im a little health conscious.

my day ended delightfully.

^.^

(i think it's time for me to change some thinkings of mine)

有点苦它才叫做爱情

我要带着微笑去面对

SALMON SASHIMI here i come!!!!

2008-07-13T03:32:00.002+08:00

it doesn't matter anymore if you got meet me or not.
i got immuned to you promising then not turning up.

习惯就好
不要有太大的希望就不会有太大的失望

i'm not putting much hope on you anymore,
cause in the end,
all my hopes get dashed.

so whatever will be, will be.
not gonna put in any effort, whatsoever.

looking forward to my date later!!!
ryan, you must be honoured to be going out with me!
^^

im not suppose to be eating so much raw food,
now that my kidney is still quite weak.

BUT I DON'T CARE!

i'm so gonna gorge myself with my favourite
SALMON SASHIMI until i puke.
lol.

salmon sushi- rice for ryan, salmon for me.
wahahahahaha~

i'm courting trouble by eating so much raw food
:x
but that someone doesn't care, so why should i bother?
just gonna enjoy while i can...

another disheartening post

2008-07-12T01:28:00.005+08:00

i just got home.
went to eat with friends at East Coast Lagoon.

fucking disappointed.
how does it feels like to be keeping your hopes high
& have it smashed to a trillion pieces?
i was so looking forward to movies with you
& you just had to spoil everything.

whatever.
i won't be free for you anymore.
even if i'm free, i don't think/not sure i wanna see you.

i think my illness(kidney infection) is coming back...
my kidneys are starting to hurt again.
i should take note of my diet but time & time again,
i didn't.
yah, i just don't know how to take care of myself.
(though i alway claim i knew how to)

i just hope i don't come down with a fever,
else i needa stay in hospital for God-knows-how-long.
i can't!
Irene(colleague) is flying to HongKong next week,
& there's no one to cover me if i fall ill.

i have to work full shift straight for 11 days till i get an off.
i hope my body can tolerate it & not break down.
):

wish me all the best for my health.
the year of the Rat is suppose to be a year of good health for Monkey(me)
but i don't know why i'm so prone to sickness.

p.s oh yah, boss didn't come today.
he'll come tomorrow for sure.
hope everything goes smoothly...

p.p.s will you take care of me?

我已经渐渐习惯

忙碌把生活填满

和自己分享晚餐

试着活得更理所当然

我已经渐渐习惯

对感情顺其自然

只是我还不明白

失去你的天空

为何看来不那么蔚蓝

失去彼此的陪伴

我们学着将回忆剪断

拒绝想念的试探曾

经以为总会找到

说服自己的答案

情绪却在风浪平息后

被一通电话打翻

many overdued pics

2008-07-11T01:08:00.004+08:00

straight hair or curled hair?

hmmmm...

at work.

the tigger Elaine gave me as a birthday pressie.

the sunglasses i bought.

i know its very big on my face.

=.=

that pink thing round my neck is my new lanyard.

the previous snapped.

)':

taken this morning before going to work.

pouty lips.

i waited 1hour for a bloody 190 bus.

i wasn't in a good mood again &

this time i did quite abit of shopping.

bought 3 dresses & a bag.

shopping did cheer me up a little but it wasn't enough.

i'm kinda messed up & down.

)':

work tomorrow & my HongKong boss is coming down.

i hope everything goes smoothly & he does not gives me pressure.

do wish me luck!

i hate people telling me to grow up,

to be mature.

i'm trying so treat me like how you would treat a 16 year old.

i just don't like to be left alone...

sigh

がんばってなみこ！！！

(ganbatte namiko)

caution: lengthy wordy post

2008-07-09T23:15:00.005+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
i just fucking reach home.
i waited 1 hour for a bus(190) that i can get up.
all the fucking 190's were so full that it didn't even bother to stop.
i am super pissed.

my mood was already very bad when i woke up this morning.
to make matters worst,
somebody had to make me flare up at work.

i am bloody moodless.
i am annoyed,frustrated,irritated,angry,depressed...

i did some shopping in hope it will cheer me up,
but i only bought a sunglass.
wanted to spent more money but Irene stopped me,
cause she knows if i were to go on a shopping spree
i will not have enough money left to eat.

i kept pacing around,screaming,venting my anger
on the counter top.
i showed fuck face to most customers.
i just wasn't the usual smiling xingru.

i have loads of pressure building up inside of me.
i have tons of frustatrations that i wanna shake off.

i wanna go on a vacation, a getaway.
just poof, gone like that.
no worries,no stress,
just me & peace.

i've been pondering alot.
it's been very hard for me.
i feel very useless, very poor when i'm beside you.

so what, i was the top student?
when people know i'm 16, i dropped out of school at Sec3,
they'll proceed to ask "HUH?! you don't even have a N level cert?"
& i'll answer in a monotonous tone
"I take O's, Triple Science."

they stopped asking after that.
i've fallen from grace.
what am i now?
nothing.
i used to be the best,i used to have the best.

it's really hard on me to keep smiling, to keep the hope.
suddenly, i felt i was very stupid.
i should have continued my studies.
but then again,i prefer working.

i just don't know where i'm heading to.
i wanna be as carefree as a lark.
i'm 16,for fuck sake.
i'm not so matured yet & i don't wanna grow up so fast!

i'm so lost, there's no light ahead to guide me.
i want somebody to lead me on, anyone but family.
because i know i don't listen to my family.
(i'm wrong for not listening to family but i really don't want to)

sigh.
it's been so long since i last felt this mixture of sucky moods.

i need someone but not just anyone.
i wanna cry,brawl my eyes out to that person.
but he's busy,he seems to have time for everything except me.

my appetite is worsening.
i have no mood to even look at food.

once again, i felt lonely.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!

just ignore me.
i wanna be alone for a couple of days.
some tags, smses, calls will go unreplied,unanswered.

p.s thanks for the Chanel foundation & those things you gave me.
but i just don't know if this is right. ):

im not in a good mood

2008-07-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging for 5days straight now.
been very busy with work.
using celest's lappy to update now while working.

i'm very sleepy now.
din sleep much last night (less than an hour?)
):

don't feel like like blogging my inner thoughts,
just feel like escaping to Utopia.
i'm frustrated, filled to the brim with frustrations.

i wanna chat on msn to relieve the stress that's
weighing heavily on my shoulders.
but i ought to get back to work now.

这心痛你能明白吗？

nothing in particular

2008-07-01T15:01:00.003+08:00

i'm bored.
i don't feel like working, i wanna be a tai tai.
just sit at home,play mahjong,go shopping sprees
without having to work & stress over money.

i think this is every females' dream.

now i think being a woman is better than a man.
at least when you take money from a man
nobody is going to criticize you.
but when a man takes money from a woman,
all the insults come pouring in.

some of the many advantages of being a female.

but of course the disadvantages sometimes outweigh
these little pleasures.

i'm bored.
did i typed that earlier on?
hah.
i'm really really boreeeddd.

i wanna play mahjong.
it's been ages since i last played it...
bah bah bah.

pic of my birthday cake.
din really like it as i hate sponge cakes.

EDITED ; time check 12am

work is always fun with them around!

all these were taken quite some time ago.

& i only got it just now from my colleague.

cute right?!

nah,

she's not my colleague but a friend who works

beside my shop.

the one wearing white on the right is my colleague,

celestine.

hah.

i look very dumb here.

ok.

this is the ugliest & dumbest of all.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

PS. WHY ISN'T THERE ANY PICTURES OF CELESTINE??!!

permed hair!

2008-06-29T23:46:00.003+08:00

I PERMED MY HAIR!!!

did you believe that nonsense?

nah, i didn't perm it.

i curled it using curling thongs.

i very free hor?

:D:D:D:D

work is very very boring.

no customer equals poor sales

poor sales equals UNHAPPY xingru!

end of the month already...

getting pay soon...

splurging soon...

going bankrupt soon...

i really needa save money in my bank!

if not i work for 20years, 20years still the same.

NO MONEY!

aiyah, enough.

i need to DO it, not just plainly say.

you'll see.

i'll be a rich tai tai after 20years!

WAHAHAHAHAHA.

yea.

i'm crazy, haven ate my medicine.

work tomorrow~

off on tuesday!

waiting for my pay...

money money money...

hoho, i'm 16!

2008-06-28T15:05:00.003+08:00

it's my birthday!
surprised that i'm blogging at this hour?

nope.
i didn't skip work.
i'm currently working now...
thanks to celest(colleague) for letting me use her lappy to update.

i'll write a longer post when i'm home
(complete with photos)

thanks for all the birthday wishes!

stupid ryan...
he said he'll come by today.
but where the hell is he??!!
>:(

do check back yea.
will update asap!

MSN

2008-06-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

look at my ah ma bun ^^

i really needa re-dye my hair asap.

it's very ugly lo.

)':

(any recommendations as to which salon does a great dye job?

+ treatment + haircut)

my birthday is 2 days away!!!

i think the hongkong boss will be coming to shop on saturday.

which is my birthday!

which means i'll be very busy on that day )':

hope boss could give me a watch that i fancied

as my b-day pressie.

(ahaha,i'm thinking too much. Boss very niao one)

i'm downloading the new windows live

as i wanna make a new mail account.

& it's fucking slow, i think cause i open too many programmes.

.____.

for what?!

MSN!

xingru is using back MSN!

what a surprise...

ok!

my windows live ID is done!

add me in MSN

(only if you are my friend or if i know you)

namiko@live.com

chat with me on MSN now leh.

i'm bored

i've updated!!!

2008-06-25T00:51:00.005+08:00

i think this year is just not my year.

health isn't that great & luck is not on my side.

)':

i'm very lazy to blog,

done house-hold chores & i'm feeling very sleepy now.

didn't blog the last 2 days

because i fell asleep upon reaching home.

i'm dead beat.

my birthday is 3days later!!!

but nothing to look forward to,

as i'd chosen to work.

hope sales will be extraordinarily exceptionally excellent.

that will be the greatest gift to me.

(i think i take this job very seriously)

work tomorrow ^^

sorry for not replying tags,

i've been too busy to reply them.

がんばってわなみこ！

*****************************************

dedicated to my grandfather & father:

As a child there were them times

I didn't get it but you kept me in line

I didn't know why you didn't show up some times

On Sunday mornings and I missed you

But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown full things separation brings

You never let me know it, you never let it show

Because you loved me and obviously

Theres so much more left so say

If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”

“Miss you but I try not to cry”

As time goes by

And as soon as you reached a better place

Still I’ll give the world to see your face

And we were here next to you

It feels like you're gone too soon

Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done

And you never got to see me back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I thought you were so strong

You'd make it through whatever

It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever

bye bye...

PANDA RAMA

2008-06-22T01:19:00.002+08:00

i just got home from watching Kungfu Panda.
it's awesome!!!
super hilarious & cute!

i love Po.
the fat panda.
haha.

かれ will be coming over to meet me soon
for Kungfu Panda meal at MacDonald's!

i've been wanting to eat it since it came out lo.
but bloody hell i got no time & there isn't
any Mac outlet in Far East Plaza.
the nearest is at Isetan,
& that's fucking far if i would wanna go & get it for my lunch.
(actually not that far la, but i lazy :/)

& when i'm not too busy to eat it..
i got ill & landed myself in hospital.
TADA!
i am not supposed to eat fried & salty food.
so bye-bye panda meal.

yeah.
so im finally able to eat it later!!!
but i'm having a flu.
i doubt i can even taste it.
=.=

wah piang.
super not destined to eat that meal.
)':

after all that panda madness,
i think i'll be a panda tomorrow!
(from all the late night sleeping & waking up early to work)

look at my dark eye rings & heavy eye bags.
imma panda~
^^

fucking hell.
i got myself sick AGAIN.
imma having a flu & my left nostril is blocked
so i sound very weird when i talk
& i can't taste any food!!!
i have a cough too(the dry cough kind)
my throat is very dry & itchy.

i think i will be very very lethargic at work later.
i hope i won't flare up at customers or doze off to sleep.
i'm very very sleepy now but i want my panda meal!
so im trying to keep myself awake.

work was very busy today.
sales was exceptionally good.
& i was having a headache
due to the fact i have not enough sleep.
-.-

i hope i won't have a headache later
else i'll feel very sick to work.

i need sleep~

loads of pictures(of me!)

2008-06-20T03:06:00.000+08:00

ALBEE'S NEW FUR STYLE!

botak!

lol.

he looks like a chi wa wa, doesn't he?

so cute right?

no hair...

WAHAHAHA~!

my calendar.

look at my busy schedule.

(i'm working on my birthday)

no, i'm not pathetic.

i chose to work on my birthday.

i rather spend time (wisely) working than celebrating.

from here on are pictures of me.

ONLY ME ^^

so if you have a problem with my face etc.

bloody hell don't scroll down.

please ignore my super messy hair.

i'm bored.

fucking bored & i can't get to sleep.

yes!

i have to work tomorrow.

i'm not in the best of moods.

as usual,

guys will mostly be the reason why girls have sleepless nights.

most guys just can't be contented with just 1 gf.

they must have flings or some other girl out there.

agree?

i totally agree!

i'm gonna try to sleep.

おやすみなさい！＞３＜

i need a warm hug from you,tell me i'm just having a nightmare

2008-06-19T04:10:00.004+08:00

我受够了等待
你所谓的安排

说的未来到底多久才来

总是要来不及才知道我可爱

我想依赖而你却都不在

应该开心的地带
你给的全是空白

一个人假日发呆
找不到人陪我看海

我在幸福的门外却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害
我是真的很难释怀

终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来

终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开

你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖

从我脸上的苍白看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在

而我对你的期待
被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块
要怎么拼凑跟重来

终于看开爱回不来
而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开
哭着求我留下来

终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开

hungry for BANANA CRUNCH!

2008-06-18T13:48:00.002+08:00

i'm hungry!
waiting for my sister to come home with a carton of milk
so i can eat cereal for lunch!
(i love Post-it banana crunch cereal!)
high in fibre,low in fat & great in taste!
i think i can be an advertiser for that brand
=.=

i'm bored.
i wanna go to work soon.
i think work is addictive
& i'm somehow,somewhat addicted to working.
it sounds very wrong but yeah,
i cannot explain why
but i like working more than shopping.

surprised?!
xingru actually enjoys working more than splurging!

[15mins later...]
ok, sis is back with my milk.
shall go & eat.

MR____, if you're reading this,
you owe me a reply.
(check your hp)

...

2008-06-17T15:05:00.002+08:00

i really wanted to get that Mango jumper.
BUT,
that bloody thing is too big for me & it is the smallest size!

so i didn't get it,
don't wanna waste $89 on something i can't fit in.

in the end i got myself 2tops,
because i can't fit into any bottoms from their clothing line.
)':
(why don't they have XS or XXS size for their jumper & bottoms?!)

wanted to get another top but all large sizes left.
=.=

ok,im starting to hate Mango.
that's it, im going for my lunch.
im starving!!!!

DISCHARGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!^^

2008-06-14T18:52:00.002+08:00

i'm finally discharged from hospital!
HOORAY!
im going bonkers from staying there.
loads of crazy patients & crying children.

8June(sunday)-14June(saturday)
that's the duration whereby im lying on the hospital bed.
OMG.
so bloody long.

i was admitted to KKH on Sunday night
& my blood pressure was very low (79 only!)
my fever was sky-high (39degrees!)
i was on drip (both hands).
)':

i used up more than 10packets of normal saline(drip) but my blood pressure
was still very low & my fever was still on & off.

it was a terrible experience.
i didn't eat & drink for 3days but was on drip
& i couldn't walk or even lift my head up.
imagine how sick i was!
i was also wheeled into the high-dependancy ward
(something like ICU-Intensive Care Unit)

yeah.
i think i lost some weight.
my sister said i don't look like a 16year old in the ward.
i look very small according to her.
-.-

i had kidney infection...
(which i don't know how it came to be & the doctor didn't say)
=.=

anyway,
im still on medication & MC!
my MC is till next saturday(21st)
& i needa go back for a follow-up.

shall blog more about my HORRIBLE experience
at the hospital some other day.
im starving & im waiting for KFC!
i didn't eat fried chicken for like 2weeks already?
poor me...
LOL.

thanks to jie,shawn,uncle chan,yimiao,ryan,faith,liwen
for coming to visit me.
special thanks to mummy & anata for coming down everyday
to accompany me & take care of me!
^^

im afraid im ill

2008-06-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

i found out something

the mirror is very dirty!

LOL.

i'm in pain!

my whole body hurts. (muscles)

my back hurts whenever i walk,stand,sit & lay.

i can't do anything without feeling the strain in my tense muscles.

my arms hurt.

my wrists hurt.

my legs hurt.

& i think i'm burning up.

my cheeks feels very hot & my body is hot too.

AHHHHH!

i don't wanna be ill.

i shall go to bed early, & drink more water!

hope my muscles will not be hurting tomorrow.

else i'll have a difficult time at work tomorrow.

wish me well ^^

おやすみなさい！

untitled

2008-06-04T22:43:00.004+08:00

[edited]

i changed my blog song.

this song is an oldie

& i don't know why im attracted to songs your momma listens

when she's young.

im back from work!

ehhh...

i forgot what i wanna blog about.

=.=

forget it.

here's some pictures.

my red & swollen index finger.

me at work ^^

im looking at shop's telephone.

super unique & cute.

(i have a pic of it below)

watching MTV Asia.

see how slack is my job??!!

still can qiao jiao watch tv.

LOL.

this is the telephone that caught my interest.

cute hor??

i gotta sleep.

im very very very tired.

i've been sleeping very late these few days

& it's taking its toll on my immune system.

i have been having sinus for the past 2 mornings!

i'll update when i can

BAD QUALITY PICTURES!!

2008-06-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

i figured out my blog posts were lacking of photos.
so i took 'a little' (actually is alot!) to spice it up.
:D
the quality is kanasai lo.
& i don't know why is that so...
maybe i oughta get a camera like what guest suggested.
but i no $$$.
)':

i wore like this to work today.
very anyhow right?
im lazy to dress up. go far east only~
wear so nice for what =.=

i saw a primary school friend today!

lucky he still remembers me else i'll get very mad.

my left index finger is red & slightly swollen.

cause i needa shorten the watch chain for customers.

my first time attempting it today & i did like 3chains(?)

i hate how the screw is always so difficult to push in.

resulting in me gripping the chain tighter & painful fingers!

sales was ok for a Monday.

hope tomorrow sales will be extraordinarily good!

& you know what?

some kids from some secondary school

kept snapping pictures of our merchandises.

never buy still keep taking photos.

buey paiseh?

make me sibei pek chek.

yea, we don't allow people to take pictures.

if you wanna snap,

buy it & go home take until your memory card is full.

>:(

that reminds me,

i have to print a poster stating no photography...

i can't wait to work tomorrow!

i think i love this job alot.

i get very excited everytime i go to work.

hahaha.

blogskin done!

2008-06-02T00:37:00.003+08:00

there!!
finally my blogskin is done!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

work tomorrow!
do drop by if you don't have to go to school.
working at Ich which is at level 3
next to Butt0n(my previous workplace).
:D

HENGLING!
your present is still with me.
=.=
faster meet me to get it~

おやすみなさい！Y

fruitful day at work

2008-06-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

so those good luck from you, peeps
do help!

my first day at work & sales was superb!
though i had problems while preparing to go to work.
my left eye was swollen.

i just got home.
work starts at 1pm & ends at 930pm.
work tomorrow~

gotta try to figure out my blogskin.
notice the wordings at the top?
i can't enlarge it by any means!
anybody knows how to?
:/

my bedroom smells of fresh spring flowers!!

2008-06-01T00:15:00.006+08:00

i tidied my whole room!

& im very very satisfied at the outcome.

i can tell you my room is super untidy!

clothes were strewn everywhere, papers, make-ups,

everything were not in the right places.

my mum has been telling me to get my room cleared

for umpteen times.

& i've been putting off tidying my room for a very long time.

Finally i got it done today. (just only)

my sister told me this after all my hard work

"i think your room will be as messy as before in a few days time."

zzzzzzzzz

i will keep my room spic & span from now on!

needa buy a few items for my room.

it looks so empty & very much like a guy's room

instead of a girl's.

show ya what i mean...

like a guy's room right?

not girly,not feminine...

imma gonna buy some girly furniture when i get my pay!

my wardrobe!

look how neat it is!

i can tell you it's 100% neater than before.

before it was like a whole pile of clothes mixed together.

alot of empty hangers & alot of clothes drooping down.

im not kidding,

i have a tendency to throw my clothes instead of keeping them neatly.

=.=

(you can ask yimiao about it, she saw it before. LOL)

i needa buy a new curtain to cover it.

i spoilt the previous one, cause i pull it too hard.

hahahaha.

after tidying my room,

i settled down to practice my Japanese.

writing ä ë ï ö ü,

ka ke ki ko ku.

the first 2 lines of Japanese alphabet.

i did another 2 pages but didn't take it down.

it's so lame to take every single page lo.

pretty moth that landed on the ceiling.

i took it down whilst it was sleeping/resting.

i forgot what i was looking at

=.=

overdued pictures.

these were the few that i tried to upload

& din turn out in the right direction.

these were taken on the day i made cupcakes!

imagine how long already...

gotta go wash up & head to bed!

i don't wanna look so tired/sloppy on my 1st day of work!

ICH here i come~~~

おやすみなさい！！

Ynighties!

must remember my birthday else i'll haunt you.

2008-05-31T14:38:00.003+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!
28June YYY
& im working tomorrow...
my first day at Ich.
hope sales will be exceptionally good!
:D:D:D:DD:D:D

wish me all the best in this new company!
imma going to Far East now to give my time sheet
to that fucking Butt0n boss.
she better give me my pay by 7thJune if not
im sure to harass her every single day.

^^
im waiting for my birthday gifts!
wahahahaha.

BORING!!!

2008-05-30T03:26:00.004+08:00

hi all^^

i`m not the owner here

wahahahas

the owner xingru is slping lik a big fat piggy now

i gonna hack the owner blog now

i gonna whack her awake now n see my nonsense

hahas^^

my stomach is calling out for food!

2008-05-29T17:28:00.002+08:00

counting down to start of work at Ich: 3more days.

i want my pay now!!!
but i've yet to give my time-sheet.
lol?

i'll blog when im back.
going Lot 1 for dinner with mummy.
:D

i'm starving.
i've not yet eaten anything...
my stomach is growling!

sayounara!
i'll be back later!
(:

i have a prejudice with ACER computers!

2008-05-28T12:34:00.005+08:00

ni na bu chee bye

i upload some pictures but they turn out not rotated in the correct direction!
i did rotate it using Picasa but when i upload it to blogger
the pics were REVERTED & not in the correct direction!

ARGHH..
angry leh.
wanna blog then like that.
stupid com stupid com stupid com.
stupid com stupid com stupid com.
stupid com stupid com stupid com.
stupid com stupid com stupid com.
stupid com stupid com stupid com.
stupid com stupid com stupid com.
STUPID ACER!!!!

i'll upload those pictures using my desktop when i get back home.
i'm currently not at home for the past 2days.
yea, so wait ok?
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

my birthday is exactly 1month later!!!

jumbled thoughts

2008-05-27T00:33:00.004+08:00

im bored.
im doing online shopping at some US website.
i wish that im working at Ich tomorrow
instead of 1june.
sick of the boring life im having now.

im gonna spend a bomb again.
there's so many clothes that i fancied.
wish that i can get my pay soon so i can buy those Bebe tops.
waiting...impatiently.

im writing nonsense.
writing whatever that comes into my brain.

i love it how i could fit in for both Girl's & Woman's US size.
(some US woman size i can't fit even though it's XS =.=)
i have much more variety than my mum & sis.
that means i always spend the most among us,ladies.
that's not a good thing, i'll end up eating grass if i spend all of my salary.
:'C

im done with my shopping!
now, i've nothing to do as im gonna end this
'no head no tail' blog post.
i said im gonna complete my post on my cupcakes right?

yea,
you guessed it right.
i don't feel like blogging about it now.
don't feel like posting pictures.
just wanna rant & rant.

bah. i better stop now.

i hate how i can't divulge my inner most feelings
on this little space of mine anymore.
i don't wanna everyone to go around making a
BIG HOO-HAA over what i just blogged.
or gossiping behind over what's on my blog.

i know what all of you are saying.
the walls have ears.
i have ears.
& i know what's going on even though i don't shame you guys
by writing every detail on my blog.

that's humans, the most flawed of all creations.

something to keep you wanting for more...

2008-05-25T15:53:00.004+08:00

CUPPIES!!!

these are strawberry flavoured cupcakes.

the 1st batch.

gonna make blueberry cuppies too!

:D:D:D:D:D:D

a little update,

so do come back for the full post maybe later at night?

PASTRY CHEF IN THE MAKING.

--namiko san--

(years later i'll be a well known cuppies chef!)

lol.

day-dreaming too much.

STILL IN THE PROCESS OF BAKING THOSE LOVELIES~

PSSSSST*
i bought a weighing machine just now.
im 43kg!
needa lose a bit more weight.
)':